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Friday, January 28, 2005
Another Chapter on Rockboy
Just when the chapter on Rockboy was drawing to a quiet close, I run into him on Wednesday night. There's been nearly two months of silence between us.
He was very pleased to see me as we caught up on each other's affairs. Rockboy was very 'touchy'. We all know 'touchy' means a high degree of sexual attraction, like the fact that he held my hand a few seconds longer than the norm. Also, I was in his constant embrace. I was reserved in his company but I admit it's very nice feeling his warm hugs again.
He reminds me that he has some of my stuff at his apartment. Learning that he still kept my pajamas under his pillows on his bed (even after eight weeks!) gave me a happy tingle inside. He asked me to phone him, not once, not twice, not trice, repeatedly. "Please call me. Let's go out to dinner, whatever. Let's talk."
We had a brief petty and child-like blame game mirroring a dream I had in December where he tells me that I was the one who stopped calling him. I insist it's the other way around. He says he can't call me since he doesn't have my number. "You no longer have my number?!?" This pissed me off.
I was having a slight self-posessed diva moment.
"Please call me." says Rockboy again. My response was a blank 'maybe' at best. We eventually bid goodbyes. But, this is not the end.
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This is Drama Central. I want to be with Rockboy, but I forecast disaster. I'm cognizant that I am not the person to compliment him as a life partner. At least, not yet. But, I'm working towards getting there.
Besides, he'll be moving out of city very shortly. A possible eventual long distance relationship will be too difficult. The risk is astronomical and I have to let my head do the thinking, not the heart.
*****
Last night coming home from work, I caught a glimpse of the last few moments of sunset. This was the first time in months that I managed to outrun the day before it left the sky.
It's a sign. Brighter days are ahead.
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