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Monday, November 15, 2004
The "Out with the Old, In with the New" Romance
The forecasted heartbreak that I had hoped to document might not happen. Sorry guys. I guess you're not about to see me breakdown anytime soon. Not because I have a happy ending with this guy. In fact, he hasn't made any effort to call me this past weekend. Asshole.
For now, this drama is filed under "The Unresolved". There's nothing more I can do but accept my helplessness in a situation beyond my control. I have to be content on leaving things the way it is regardless of my pact to get to the bottom of this mess. Having said that, I assure you that this is one of those things that will bite me in the ass several months from now. He'll reappear in my life, and I would be a complete wreck. Man, can't he break my heart already? I want to get it over with.
On the up side, something interesting happened this weekend, starting Friday night. I took a chance on another guy: Rockboy. He's the most unexpected welcome surprise. We have great chemistry: physically, mentally, & emotionally I'm right there with him. He says that for someone of my age, I have tremendous self-awareness.
Yesterday, we held hands walking down the boardwalk by the lake, the sunset colouring our sky. It was romantic. Like kids, we swung ourselves one-storey high on the swings. I almost forgot how exciting it is meeting someone new.
In the interest of not putting my foot where my mouth is, I think that's all I should say for now.
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