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Monday, November 08, 2004
The Stranger Who Knew Me
Sipping peppermint tea at Starbucks, I am approached by a stranger on Sunday evening. He looks familiar. Then, I realized that he was the same person who said hello to me at a bar, a few weeks ago.
Busy reading, I didn't want to be disturbed. But at the same time, I didn't want to dismiss him so rudely, so there I was listening. I'm making subtle gestures to signal that I don't want to chitchat: looking at my watch, avoiding eye contact, pretending to read, discouraging a two-way discussion...
And then, something interesting happened. The topic of conversation took on a very personal turn, without me giving him anything to go by. What he was telling me made complete sense. It was about moving on, knowing that there's so much fish out there for me. I tell him, "It's just so difficult. I do want to move on so badly." He seemed in tune with what I was feeling emotionally. I got teary-eyed. I did.
But I hid everything with a smile as I looked away. He says I'm the perfect package: intelligent and goodlooking. My reply to him was that he forgot the most important element: the heart.
Sigh. He recalls to me how strong 'young love' is. He also mentions that I'm a good person, with a good personality brimming with wisdom. He says I'm direct and to the point yet still sensitive to the feelings of others. I asked him how he could classify me as such when he barely knows me. He could just tell. Could he be a psychic? How can a stranger speak so right on about me? Then, it occurred to me that he could be reading my blog. Oh.
At that point, it didn't matter. He took the interest and invested the time. ***If you are indeed reading this blog, I really appreciate what you did. You made me feel so good about myself, assuring me that there's so much in store for me, and it's out there for my taking. ***
One of the thoughts I was left with by this aforementioned stranger is that the current romance I'm pursuing is not worth my time, emotional attachment or not. There's a few guys on my list, but movement with them is stunted because I'm waiting on a guy who does not seem to appreciate me. Point well taken.
But I need to see this right through the very end. I have to continue my emotional investigative work about the guy that have captured my heart for the past 6 years.
Love at first sight? I don't even know. I owe it to myself to find out.
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