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Wednesday, February 02, 2005
I've Missed You So Much
I was out with Rockboy last night.
Prior to meeting up, I told him I want to re-establish "friendship". Hence, I thought it'd be fun to take him to a screening of a small Canadian film called Saint Ralph. I highly recommend this movie. It even made Rockboy cry! (*** Watch out for the film's North American release sometime in late April. Shaking the director's hand was pretty cool too.)
Rockboy had hoped we'd talk about what happened two months ago. But with scheduling and a late movie, it didn't leave much time for us to do just that.
Sitting across the table, in my silence, I stared at Rockboy almost unwavering, trying to map out a similar man of his image, brimming of beauty and goodness. I've never met a man filled with so much passion as he has for life. I want him. I can't imagine being with anyone else, but I know I am unable to see past the immediate future. I want him but I'm not ready to have him just yet.
Just as he drops me off at my apartment, Rockboy says he wants to get together again. I told him I'll see him in March, to which he gave a curious look. I told him he'll be away on business and he's moving out of town so it's pointless to plan. He accepted my reply in disappointment but realizing its truth.
And then, he asks for a kiss.
But I couldn't. Instead, I settled on a peck on his cheek and a long warm embrace. "I've missed you so much." I whispered. He didn't reply. It wasn't neccessary.
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